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awwww-cute:

A baby and a 125lb Pit Bull

awwww-cute:

A baby and a 125lb Pit Bull

have an obsession with flapjacks atm

chloeswanderlustproject:

Feeding the giraffe in Kenya :)

chloeswanderlustproject:

Feeding the giraffe in Kenya :)

themaidenofthetree:

I want you to imagine a ten year old version of yourself sitting right there on this couch. Now this is the little girl who first believed that she was fat, and ugly, and an embarrassment.

(Pointless personal post)

had review with my consultant today. 

it was ok… 

what we talked about: 

  • periods
  • periods
  • menstrual cycle 
  • periods
  • uni 
  • food
  • weight
  • periods
  • bones
  • bone density 
  • menstrual cycle

finally got the results for both my bone density scans (one from 2011 and one from 2013 LOL). 

my bones have low density but not that bad apparently and the bone density has not increased from 2011-2013 which isn’t too good.

my ponytail looked funky today

princessofgenovia:

Here are some pictures I took this morning before I got dressed for the day. I need everyone to understand my struggles. Why? Because I can’t keep it in anymore and I’m not ashamed or embarrassed or scared to ask for help, because I need it. I’m only scared that it will never happen.

I appreciate you all telling me I am beautiful and such regardless, and the thoughts and comments about body acceptance, but please keep in mind this is not just about body image. That is not why I want/need surgery.

This is loose skin from a time that was severely traumatic in my life. Not only that, but it is very physically uncomfortable.

Notice the creases on my sides as I lean over and how it is not just the bottom  of my stomach? It pulls my entire midsection down with it (this is why vertical surgery is necessary). It is a loose and hanging apron of skin. Imagine going to a yoga class and doing downward dog with this. I can’t anymore now that I’ve gained my weight back. It’s too upsetting and uncomfortable.

It is not fat, I am not overweight, and I have not been overweight for many years. The more weight I gain the more accentuated the excess skin gets.. hence why eventual anorexia. It is a total screw up in my head to have this at a healthy weight and that is not even including the factors that caused this which were responses to trauma.

The second set of photos is when I sit. It hangs over uncomfortably and folds. Though all stomachs do this when we sit down, it is a drastic difference than someone who is at a low end/middle normal weight..which is what I am. My stomach will never be “normal” or “perfect” even with surgery, but it would drastically change my life, physically, comfort wise, and mentally.

This is why I’ve struggled so hard and for so many years. I am still, still trying to be okay and hoping to god somehow I can find a way to come up with funds for surgery as quick as possible before I waste more years of my life. All I ever wanted was to be free.

Those of you who are understanding and trying to help me, thank you. I really am forever grateful, and, I’ve never known I could have friends and people that would care like this.

Laura, Sophie, Sydney, and my dear little Sveta, always keeping me going. <3

As I wrote this, I went back to grab the link for my surgery donation page, here. I saw that Kate donated. Cue more tears. Thank you. Everything counts. It counts not only towards my surgery but towards my heart and hope for myself. Thank you so much.

This is me today as I struggle to eat and this is why. I’m always afraid of making the skin worse, mentally and physically on myself. This is the truth and I am sorry. I have always felt so misunderstood about all of this and by so many people.

I hope that with enough talking through my pain I can help people understand and they are willing to fight with me, fight for me, and help in any way they can. I have spent my whole life silent and confused and in recovery is the only time in my life I have been able to ask for help. I’ve been too afraid of being judged, misunderstood, and being told to get over it. Well, I’m not. This is something extremely important and detrimental to me. I’ve struggled for enough years and I’m not, I CAN’T keep it in anymore because I’m afraid of what it did and could still do to me.

Thank you to those of you who have followed me throughout, supported me, and not left me. It truly means a lot.

elephantsarevegan:

my all time favorite breakfast is bread with peanut/almond butter and sliced banana &lt;3

elephantsarevegan:

my all time favorite breakfast is bread with peanut/almond butter and sliced banana <3

(Source: the-anal-rapist)

mcisaacs:

recent studies reveal that 100% of abortions are performed on women who do not wish to be pregnant and 0% of abortions are performed on conservative republican men

mysteryplantgirl:

castielhasthephoneb0x:

i can nt breath this old man who has like the biggest onion ever is so pr ou d of it 

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LOOK HOW HAPPY HIS ONION MAKES HIM

this makes my heart smile

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elephantsarevegan:

my food cravings are getting harder :( this was my delicious snack the day before my surgery!

elephantsarevegan:

my food cravings are getting harder :( this was my delicious snack the day before my surgery!